Thursday, 8 August 2013

Preparation

Preparing … with gratitude that brings joyfulness. It’s really funny how new information rearranges things on your priority list and within seconds, that's for sure. After pelting out my concerns and publishing it on the last post I received an email letting me know not to worry about insurance and vaccinations and why. Oh how much more have my days freed up since then? So now, yes, all I have to do is to sit, wait, with bags packed and ready to go at a moments notice. Well, not quite, I still have to wait for my visa to be processed. Still, who am I to be treated with such leisure?

Now that I have all the time in the world I can begin to think outside of my concerns and helping my mother where I can and as much as I can. Since my last my post, there have been huge changes. I no longer have a big, beautiful family home in Auckland, now we have a wonderful homely retreat in Tauranga. In amongst the tight time schedule of moving furniture, boxes and … well, stuff from one city to the next I have been spoilt with a leisurely few days in Tauranga, including having the most relaxed, enjoyable breakfast I have had in a long time. I have spent enjoyable days with my younger brother in the city, who flew over from Australia for a quick holiday.

Over all these past few weeks, I have had the opportunity to be still IN AMONGST organised and sometimes not so organised chaos, something that I had forgotten to appreciate in the last few months, perhaps even years.

Now, I am simply waiting for my visa to return to me, as I sit at the end of the couch, with my legs up on some unpacked boxes and my packed luggage next to me. As I am, I reminisce of the things that I will miss the most and the amazing blessings that I am so grateful for. And the more I think about it the more I realise I have more to be thankful for.

The privileges that I have experienced and am more than grateful for:
I have been longing to be alone with God with no other distractions and I am so amazed that even though I struggle with the impatience of waiting for my visa to be confirmed, I am blessed to have all this time to sit and be still, clear my mind and prepare myself mentally for the next season of my life. If I really think about it, this is exactly what I prayed for too.

As I was finishing off study last year, my prayer was that I would have a smooth transition into a job, something that I didn’t have to strive for, also to have time to relax and refresh myself before I teach. WOW, even though I had forgotten those prayers, God remembered them and answered them!

Secondly, I was able to spend the last night with an excellent friend before she left for The Big Apple (New York), although it’s sad to see her go and slowly being faced with the reality that I do not know when or where I will see her next, I am so happy to see her step into something that is in her heart to do, what a privilege to know someone personally that can inspire you to do the same.

I also had the privilege of being the first one to stay in my mother’s new house for a few nights. It’s a beautiful house and I treated myself to a hot bath, danced around the open plan floors and saw a few friends that blessed me with their card playing, laughs, stories, hugs and music but most of all their presence.

I miss my cat, every little shadow that I saw in the new house I thought it was Yoffi, and I would automatically call out his name to come to me. Oh, I think I will miss him more than I will let on. It is comforting to know that my good friends are looking after him for a little while, whom I am so grateful for, as well. I hope the cat shows his gratitude also … without using his teeth.

So a little more details about my new job in Bangladesh; I have a two year contract. Next summer (June) I will be offered a return flight back to NZ if I choose to. I have an Ayah (house maid) and I live in a three bedroom apartment, nice. I have a flatmate, who sounds fun and lovely, hence I can't wait to meet her!

So, if nothing else … LOOK, hunt out something to be grateful for and you will leisurely enjoy life amongst chaos.

Prayer: - Visa is taking longer than usual, pray for speedy arrival with no complications. It is all in God’s timing and I will enjoy every moment while I wait for it. - I am more than prepared for my first class, which starts on the 12th of August.